Here we are. One week into the new year already. The time truly flies and I cannot believe that I am going back to Australia in one week. It feels like I landed on the airport in Norway only a few days ago, even though I have been in Norway nearly three weeks. I remember when I was younger a year felt like forever, but as I have started to get older every year seems to fly away even faster than the last one. To be honest, it scares me. I am at a point in my life where I do not know what I want to do with my life, and I feel like I am wasting so much time trying to figure it out. When I was younger, I was so sure I was going to devote my life to equestrian. I loved spending all of my time in the stable together with my friends. The stable was my second home since I was only 5 years old, and it was where I felt most confident. Unfortunately, not everything turns out the way we want to. After my last pony died when I was 16, I decided to quit. It was the hardest decision I have ever made, but I was so devastated after my loss that it felt like the only right thing to do.

My decision left me rather confused, and in one way it feels like I never really figured out who I am without my horses. For so long I had spent all of my spare time in the stable that I had no idea of what to do with all of those hours when I did not have to care for another living being anymore. I started to feel very alone and that feeling have never really left me since. I have tried to find something else to fill my time with and I have become passionate about so many new things, but not in the same way. Horses and equestrian will always have a special place in my heart and I know that I will get horses again; I am just not so sure if I want to turn it into my career anymore.

One thing I know for sure is that I want to travel and experience the world. I want to see what it has to offer and I want to meet people from all over the world and make lifelong friendships and connections. I want to be creative and create something, and I want to inspire others in one way. I am not sure how, but it is a dream of mine. I think what I am most afraid of is a "normal" life. I am a person that easily gets bored of the same routines day in and day out, so an 8 am to 4 pm job is not for me. I think that is what scares me the most, and I feel like I have to come up with something genius to avoid ending up doing something that does not put a smile on my face every day when I wake up.

I know there is no point to stress about time and the fact that we are getting older, because the clock keeps ticking whenever we like it or not. I think the solution is to work as hard as you can every day and if you are in a situation like me, I think it is important to remember what kind of things you truly like to do and find a way to make them a part of your life. I once heard a wiseman say that everyone knows what their passion is, but that most people ignore it because they are afraid of not making it. Remember that doubt kills more dreams than failure ever will . that is something I have to remind myself as well!

A new year is a fresh start and I would like to take this opportunity to remind everyone that it is the perfect time to write down your goals and dreams and start working towards reaching them! I have mixed feelings about New Year resolutions because I know many people postpone their dreams because they "need" a fresh start. If you are one of those - I understand you very well! However, I think it is important to remember that the longer you wait, the longer time it will take for you to get where you want. Let this year be the year when you step out of your comfort zone and try to reach for what you truly want in your life! For me this year will be all about getting things done and not doubting myself!


3 kommentarer


06.01.2016 kl.20:55

S herlig innlegg, kjempe fine bilder :)


06.01.2016 kl.21:09

lisarorvik: Tusen takk! :)

07.01.2016 kl.19:27


Alla dessa dagar som kom och gick, inte visste jag att det var livet.

Stig Johansson. svensk dikter

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My name is Kaja Hglund (21 y/o) and I love everything that has to do with photography and traveling. I'm currently living on the golden coast of Australia - enjoying life and studying Graphic Design/Photography. CONTACT: KAJA_HOGLUND@HOTMAIL.COM